if you told me two years ago that i'd be chasing what i wanted in this life i wouldnt have believed you. i would have told you that its too risky and far too much of a scary path to take... and sure enough, as of now, i am scared. i fear that i come out the next four years with nothing. i fear that i eventually learn that it isn't going to happen, that i realize it had been nothing but an immature ambition all along, that i grow only to discover a truth that i had known two years prior. but tell me why despite all this, i am also the most excited i have ever been in my life... why, despite all this, i am happier than i have ever been... why despite everything, i choose to sprint down this road... i guess at times the thought of having the chance to get what i want most tempts me too much i simply roll the dice.

yorqin
with love, from the goons